LET YOURSELF GROW
Hello there! I hope this week finds you moving away from the things that don't make you happy and towards those that do. I'm sipping blood orange black tea this morning and thinking about this quote...
"Like wildflowers; You must allow yourself to grow in all the places people thought you never would." - E.V. Rogina
Bing bang boom! That little quote was sitting at the bottom of my full moon calendar this entire month and I only just noticed it, but boy did it ever land.
I have spent a lot of my life asking for permission. Permission to perform, permission to get a raise, permission to wear certain things, do certain things, take trainings, go places and on and on. Don't get me wrong, I've done a lot and I plan to do more. But there's always been this part of me that can't help but ask "is this okay?" every time I want to do something or try something.
I find this incredibly frustrating because I know who I am and I'm learning more about myself every day. I know that I'm capable and that I'm also allowed to try and fail and try again. So why am I looking around for other people's permission when the only permission I need is my own?
In my classes last week we were talking about what it means to reclaim your space. To take it up physically, mentally and emotionally. To allow yourself to be unapologetically BIG in every sense of the word. It struck me that I'm teaching this as I'm learning it. There's so much I want to do and try, but I'm hesitating. Afraid to misstep or fail or waste money or be judged. I think this is why I want someone else to say "It's okay. Go for it, Helen. Do the thing!". And while I'm lucky enough to have people in my life who will do that for me, I'm realizing more and more that I need to be the one that does that for me. I need to say "It's okay. Go for it, Helen. Do the thing!"
I initially thought the quote in this email was about proving yourself to other people, which may be true. But for me, the ultimate thing is to prove to myself that I'm still the wild child I once was. Fearless as I trotted down the unknown trails looking for adventure. I know she's in there and I want her to show up more, without waiting for permission.
It means more coming from me. I want to give myself permission to live the life I want. To surprise myself. To grow in those places I never thought I would.
Maybe you do too. What would it feel like to say "It's okay. Go for it. Do the thing!"?
As you move into June, remember to treat yourself and your body with love, respect and kindness.
Much love,
Helen xo
