YOU REALLY DID!
So… 2018 is done, folks. It’s officially done!
Here we all stand at that fork in the road that is a shiny new year. If there were a signpost at my fork, it would have one arrow pointing down the very well worn path of new years resolutions (lose weight, do a handstand, learn 12 languages, be perfect and then act surprised when people start to notice that you've become perfect this year, etc). It reads "Shiny new life...this way!". I've been down this road many, many times. How could I not? I can almost see the amazing smug Helen at the other end of it. She's put together and always on time. Yoga every day. The laundry basket never gets overly full. She's always got a home cooked healthy meal ready and she's read a thousand books in her spare time (no trashy ones, of course) but I digress! This potential Helen is a wonder to behold my friends. Problem is...she's not me. She's never going to be me, and what a freaking load off that is!
When I look at the other arrow, its not particularly shiny and the path ahead is less used. I don't see that wonderful alluring Helen waving at the other end. I am the only Helen in this scenario. It's just me now, as I am. This sign reads "You're already doing it. Just keep going". And this is the path for me in 2019.
Whether your 2018 was magnificent, nothing to write home about, or the worst year of your life: you are here and you are already doing it. Keep going. You don't need to shame yourself in to making changes. Celebrate who you are and then swagger your sweet self down that path. But just before you take that first step, I will invite you to take a moment, look over your shoulder at the year behind you and celebrate. Be proud of one moment. Just one. I guarantee you there is at least one moment to be proud of yourself for. So take a deep breath and have it. Roll around in it and thank yourself for all that you are.
My moment is reflected in the picture above. I went surfing for the first time in my life this year and it was magic. Don't get me wrong, I didn't stand up (not even close). But it didn't matter. I had allowed myself to do something that historically I would have talked myself out of. I would have needed to be thinner and fitter and to know that I could get up and prove myself on that board. I wouldn't have wanted to change in a parking lot (I wouldn't want anyone to see me) and I definitely wouldn't have wanted to deal with squeezing myself into a wetsuit and dragging a board down to the sea. Nope! No way! Too many opportunities for people to look at me and to judge. But in the past few years I have worked very hard to change my mindset and what I have come to realize is that with all my goals and resolutions and diets and garbage self-talk, I ultimately just wanted to feel free. I thought changing my body would bring that. But changing my mind has turned out to be the not-so-flashy "magic" answer. And in this photo, I feel absolutely free. The beautiful ocean had dragged and rolled me about, she had taken everything I had to give. And I felt like the purest version of myself. Alive and wild and free.
In 2019, I wish this freedom for you too.
We are a one week into the New Year and while I am no way against setting goals that make you feel excited and joyful, I invite you to scrap the ones that are tied up in shame. Give that glossy, fake version of you the brush off and revel in exactly who you are. Right now. Be proud of yourself and then swagger on in to 2019 and do those things that call to your heart. You don't have to change a damn thing. Just. Keep. Going.
As always, if I can support you in any way, I'm just an email away.
With so much love!